Adventures of Health, Wellness and Balanced Lifestyle

Yesterday I saw a wonderful surgeon since I wasn't loving the treatment received with the other practice here in the area.   So we found out a bit of information yesterday very valuable stuff.  The radiology report is suspicious to the doctor just because of the hypervascularity of the ultrasound.  Again we won't know anything until I have the Fine Needle Biopsy done on July 8th.  The doctor also confirmed that I will have surgery regardless on this tumor because of the sheer size of it, its the size of a golf ball.  My vocal cords are not impaired at this time so thats a very good thing.  Im very raspy in the mornings and evenings and this is very normal, I have a dry cough and it can sometimes be very hard to swallow as well as the fatigue of my body being stressed out from this tumor.  The other lobe of my thyroid is just fine nothing else to report no hidden nodules or inflammation. Depending on what this tumor is being malignant or benign will determine which surgery opti

For most of you who know me personally for about 3 weeks now Ive put on a brave face and said well I can't do anything about the lump in my neck except go to the doctor.  For the people who don't already know my diagnosis is a solitary thyroid nodule about 3.56 mm in diameter, they're sending me for a biopsy this coming week.  In most cases these tumors are benign  but about 25% of them are malignant.  Most of the time regardless of the biopsy finding they need to be removed. Truth be told Im scared shitless.  Im scared Im angry Im sad Im so many things right now its so hard to explain.  The brave face works for awhile but right now Im just scared.  Scared because though this type of thing is generally curable its the unknown factors right now.  My husband deserves an award for the tears that I have shed and putting up with the moments that I can't keep it together.  Ive never met someone so selfless before, he's literally the most amazing person Ive ever met in my

So this past week has been a roller coaster of sorts for us here in this household.  I went to the lady doctor for a yearly ( sorry TMI ) everything was normal but a random lump he found at the base of my neck.  You can only see the lump as I swallow or tilt my head backwards.  I exercise I have a pretty good diet and so finding MR RANDOM LUMP has thrown us for a loop.  Yes its in the general thyroid area but seeing as my obgyn is sending me to the ENT over the ENDOCRINOLOGIST leads me to believe this lump isn't my thyroid, with that being said I was told that I would be having more issues than not knowing the lump was there.  So this lump is painless, I feel a bit more tired than normal some days but not everyday I could attest this as well being to the dogs in our bed and the TV on and in general Im the lightest sleeper ever even when exhausted!  For the last week Ive kept o n my normal lifting schedule, though Im really focusing on only doing cardio for right now!  So onto the E

I believe in second chances, I also believe people can change if they want too.  With that being said  theres a few rules to things in life.  If people genuinely care and go out of their way to try and be apart of your life and vice versa don't take that lightly, because the more you push them away the further they will drift. Once people realize that their actions speak louder than words with others maybe they will completely understand.  Don't only call me or talk to me when you need my help or Im your last resort because I won't be there in that negative space.  This is how I choose to live my life, now is my time to be confident in saying anyone who comes near me should have the same intentions with me as I do with them for being a door mat for people isn't my thing. Positive self love. I make up my own mind.  I speak the truth!

Something that Ive been pondering lately one in particular is why can't people seem to get things done by themselves?  When did we become a generation to depend on everyone else in our lives to make things happen?  We did we become a generation that blames everything in our lives on why we can't accomplish something?  I can't wrap my head around this idea, maybe because I think differently or that I'm pretty damn independent.  I think about this in a few ways but the simplest is this if we have a job and we do our job we never blame others for not getting our job done, its our own fault if we didn't get it accomplished in a timely manner etc.  So in other terms of thinking why isn't this adopted with everything in life? So, I guess you all can come to your own conclusions here but my conclusion is this stop waiting for someone to lead you to your future or your own success, stop waiting for the extra help you may or may not need cause the truth is that you can